Finding Movement
When I went to the gym, I felt a personal power I didn’t feel outside in my everyday life, and it stuck with me afterwards! Plus, all the work I was doing with my therapist stuck to my bones a little better when I moved consistently. I became such a believer in the power of Movement that I dived head-first into life as a personal trainer, but I had no idea how much work I still had to do…
Healing My Relationships with Food and Body
Through working at the gym where aesthetics were king, my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and eating disorder flared up big time.
I became obsessive about the “perfect” body and addicted to the need to conform to an unhealthy standard of “fitness.” I needed that fix, and I’d hurt myself to get it. Starving myself, purging, poisoning my body with diet pills, overtraining to the point of injury and hormonal imbalance: all of these were the norm for me.
I hit rock bottom yet again when I super-restricted for a video shoot, then promptly binged every day for weeks. I just couldn’t stop. With help from my supporters, I got back into recovery and fully committed to healing my body, mind and spirit. I found Intuitive Eating and somatics through my eating disorder therapist and was shocked that the food obsession finally released its death grip! After a lifetime of it! I discovered body neutrality through social media and was so grateful there was a name to what I always wished I could feel about my body!
Through my personal healing, I learned more about how to help people who go through similar struggles. And now, it’s what I do. :)
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