Finding Movement
When I went to the gym, I felt a personal power I didnāt feel outside in my everyday life, and it stuck with me afterwards! Plus, all the work I was doing with my therapist stuck to my bones a little better when I moved consistently. I became such a believer in the power of Movement that I dived head-first into life as a personal trainer, but I had no idea how much work I still had to doā¦
Healing My Relationships with Food and Body
Through working at the gym where aesthetics were king, my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and eating disorder flared up big time.
I became obsessive about the āperfectā body and addicted to the need to conform to an unhealthy standard of āfitness.ā I needed that fix, and Iād hurt myself to get it. Starving myself, purging, poisoning my body with diet pills, overtraining to the point of injury and hormonal imbalance: all of these were the norm for me.
I hit rock bottom yet again when I super-restricted for a video shoot, then promptly binged every day for weeks. I just couldnāt stop. With help from my supporters, I got back into recovery and fully committed to healing my body, mind and spirit. I found Intuitive Eating and somatics through my eating disorder therapist and was shocked that the food obsession finally released its death grip! After a lifetime of it! I discovered body neutrality through social media and was so grateful there was a name to what I always wished I could feel about my body!
Through my personal healing, I learned more about how to help people who go through similar struggles. And now, itās what I do. :)
Strong Inside Outās Evolution